Our Transformed Angel

    "In the bottom of an old pond lived some grubs who could not understand why none of their group ever came back after crawling up the lily stems to the top of the water. 

They promised each other that the next one who was called to make the upward climb would return and tell what had happened to them. 

Soon one of them felt an urgent impulse to seek the surface; she rested herself on the top of a lily pad and went through a glorious transformation which made her a dragonfly with beautiful wings.

 In vain she tried to keep her promise. Flying back and forth over the pond, she peered down at her family below. Then she realized that even if they could see her, they would not recognize such a radiant creature as one of their number.                                    

 The fact that we cannot see our loved ones or communicate with them after the transformation which we call death, is no proof that they cease to exist."

 In heaven Nicole is radiant, beautiful, healed of all illness....she is to beautiful to exist in this world.

 

 

 You are my heart my Angel in Heaven and Tina is my Angel on earth

 

 

8 months

 Our Beautiful Nicole, Eight months have passed without your precious smile,those Bambi eyes and contagious laugh. Everyday is a struggle, everyday "grief attacks" come without warning.

Not a minute passes that you are not on our minds, and always in our hearts. Our only comfort is knowing you are an angel with God in heaven.

Some days Nicole, even that is not enough for our broken hearts...we will be together again and we hold on to...

 FAITH ~ HOPE~ LOVE

the greatest of these is LOVE

Our tears flow like a river with the Love and Joy you gave us

The Cystic Fibrosis Great Strides Walk

 Blow Away Cystic Fibrosis

 

please donate 

www.cff.org/Great_Strides/DeborahPisani

Next weekend June 3, 2012 is the Great Strides Walk

  It is held at Bowdoin Park in Pougkeepsie NY. Registration is at 10 am.

 Please join the efforts of thousands to help rid this world of the disease that robbed my daughter of her future.

For over 10 years we have been

 "WALKING FOR NIKI"

Cystic fibrosis is an inherited chronic disease that affects the lungs and digestive system of about 30,000 children and adults in the United States.

 A defective gene and its protein product cause the body to produce unusually thick, sticky mucus that: 

• clogs the lungs and leads to life-threatening lung infections; 

• and obstructs the pancreas and stops natural enzymes from helping the body break down and absorb food.

In the 1950s, few children with cystic fibrosis lived to attend elementary school. Today, advances in research and medical treatments have further enhanced and extended life for children and adults with CF. Many people with the disease can now expect to live into their 30s, 40s and beyond. 

 Nicole (27) over the years saw many advancements in treatments to help her manage this disease from the funding for research.She participated in many blind test studies to help in the advancement of treatments. Over the years there have been new drugs to help fight infection,mucus thinners, better digestive aides that all added to the quality of her life.

This is all good, but it's not enough... we need to find the cure! 

Science is so close,please help to fund the research. 

www.cff.org/Great_Strides/DeborahPisani

This year as always,we will continue to fight for other families so they never have to loose this battle.

Memorial Day

Don't forget to Thank those who serve to protect our freedom

GOD BLESS AMERICA

Your 1st Mother's Day

 
My Precious Daughter, Happy 1st Mother's Day in Heaven

Our "JOY" was in your smile

This is how I picture you in heaven, only I know how wonderful that feels after holding and caring for you, my baby. Kiss that baby boy for us, he is the reason I can't kiss you. I knew when he called you, you would go. My Mother's heart would pull me to your heart, if God gave me that chance too.

I Cherish You

       Only by God's GRACE

Mother's Day

This is a difficult week for me...to be perfectly honest. Every where you look there is some reminder of Mother's day. TV commercials, store flyers, restaurants and more. Each reminding us of the mother we love and to honor her this special day. For some this will be a day of pampering, jewelry made from macaroni, treats from experiments in the kitchen, or flowers and candy. All special, all from the heart.

This would have been my first Mother's day honoring Nicole as a mother and my first Mother's Day as "Nonna", Tina's first Godmother's day. It is heart breaking to not be able to share this day with her. 

I know she would have been beaming and we would have spoiled her! Since we can't spoil her from earth we will look to heaven and pray for beams of sun to warm our faces as she warmed our hearts. We will pray for her peace in heaven with her son.

I will cling to the beautiful memories Nicole, Tina and I shared over these last twenty six years. Each one precious, just like them.

 I have been so blessed, for me...it was mother's day everyday.

 I look at my daughters as my greatest gifts. I cherish the memories of everyday spent with them. 

God Bless all Mother's this weekend....this is God's great gift to you, never take for granted one second of their precious life. We have been given a privilege to have them at all.

SPEECHLESS

Parents should never have to do this.....tonight reality hit hard.

 God please help us

 NICOLE HAS LEFT FOOTPRINT'S ON OUR HEARTS

 

 Tears are God’s gift to us.  Our holy water.  They heal us as they flow

  Today I saw the rain, it always reminds me of the tears that we shed. Many have fallen over the last 7 months... 

missing your child is like nothing you can imagine. 

There are moments when the grief seems to much to bare. 

You reflect on every minute of your child's life, what you put into it and how beautiful it was. Pictures take you back to a place where you'd like to remain ....and then life's purpose becomes clear.You reflect on this precious life and you wonder....what is his life plan for me? 

Being Nicole and Tina's mother is my greatest JOY and gift from God. 

He trusted me to care for them and to make his message clear.

If we remember that our children belong to him, then we know to him they must return. 

Our human heart must cry, but our faithful heart must trust.

 Always looking up to the Lord with thanks and praise for the gifts he has given us....this is where the heart must go.