Monday night

Today is two months without Nicole...it seems impossible that two months has passed...and yet the heartache is so deep that it feels as if we have been sad forever. I know this was a bad day for me, I couldn't more forward, couldn't go to work today. Did a lot of crying and reminiscing. I promise myself tomorrow I will make a huge effort to get out of this slump I have to...I'm human...it has nothing to do with my faith. I have my faith, I know she is happy and healthy. I'm just sad to my core and I miss her so much. Please God I pray, to remind me of the gifts over the grief...my blessings have been more than most. I am for ever grateful.